Test Scores are in

Well, last night was the big reveal for my latest big test scores. I studied so hard for these but when I left on Thursday night I wondered just how I might have done. I am relieved to say that it went well.

It was a very good lesson in waiting this weekend. Waiting is very hard. I wanted to know what I got right after I had taken it. I am possibly not so aware of how many times God asks me to wait on Him. To wait for that timing, or to wait and be silent while He works something out. I am thankful for a God that waits for me when I am less than punctual about responding to Him.

For those of you who are wondering, it was a 94%. So now, on to today. There are no tests looming tonight or tomorrow so today is all about playing with my kids and I think making homemade playdough is on the agenda today!! Should be messy. Just what the mommy ordered!

Simple Mondays

FOR TODAY...October 19th

Outside my window... Gray couldy skies that invite me to make a hot cup of Peppermint tea today.

I am thinking... "How blessed I am to have a washer and dryer that works"

I am thankful for... a husband who fixes lunch after church so that his wife can get a run in the sun.

I am wearing... Running clothes

I am remembering... how much my grandmother loved Jesus

I am going... to give Isabella a bath this morning

I am reading... The Return of the Indian with Jordan

I am hoping... for a good return on my test and success on the new ones this week

On my mind... trying to decide if I will get the tetnus shot this week like I should

Noticing that... the grass is not growing anymore!

Pondering these words... It is what it is

From the kitchen... Grilled Salmon tonight with some baked baby red potatoes and salad

Around the house.... A lot of clothes that need to be taken to the goodwill (if I ever get them bagged up!)

One of my favorite things this time of year... Corn Stalks decorating the front of the house

From my picture journal.. Isabella in the pile of leaves off of our tree yesterday

So Very Hard

You just don't know how hard it is for me to write this tonight. I am on a women's ministry team and we set up tonight for a brunch that we will be doing in the morning. I will be a host of a game show and we got to practice tonight during set up. Everything went wrong. I lost my note cards with all the questions on them, there was a power surge that blew out the projector, and the interruptions just kept on coming.

I don't FEEL like doing this tomorrow. I don't know what to expect or even if the projector will be working so that we can do it. After all that craziness, I came home and my kids just weren't listening. They ended up having mommy explode at them about disobedience and then go to bed.

So where do I go from here? Where do I pick up from? Obedience.....don't I struggle with that a lot where my walk with God is concerned? But he doesn't explode on me. He patiently waits for me to return to Him and he lovingly embraces me every time that I do. He also doesn't tell me to be obedient because I FEEL like it. He expects me to be obedient because I love Him.

"It is what it is" is a saying that I have seen on a lot of stuff lately. But really, it is what it is. I have a friend that was just talking to me about circumstances this week. I had this cute saying on my blog a few days ago about not letting your circumstances define you and how you FEEL. Then she said that she was challenged in her devotionals to be content in whatever circumstances she was faced with. She followed that up by sharing how it's really about the heart and not the circumstances at all.

Well, I am not going to dwell on my circumstances. I am not going to sweat the details. I am going to trust God to work it all out and bless all the effort that is being put forth. I hope that I don't ever stop trying to be better. I hope that I always strive to do my best. But I also hope to continue to be molded into a person that can accept what is going on around me and make the best out of it at all times.

Yes....I will be kissing my babies again before I go to bed tonight and I do thank God that they won't remember every time their mom failed. And yes....I will be there tomorrow with a renewed sense of the love that I have for these women and why I do it to begin with. And yes.....I would love your prayers. Not for me, but for the women whom God is preparing for such a time as this tomorrow morning.

Thanks.

Moving...?

Whew! It is official. Greg's boss, for the first time in 4 years, is just here to say Hi and do a check in with everyone. It looks like we are going to break our record of no more than two years in a house for us! It's been less but we've not yet made it to three in any one house in 13 years. YIKES! No moving for us. Sorry Erin. Although, for the record, Greg was just planning on Matt hooking him up at McKinstry if need be.