I am a perfectionist. There, I said it. I got an 89% on a Chem test and it rocked my world tonight. It was a super hard test and one that the professor did not completely prepare us for. I hated getting it back and having to accept the reality of my score. It will drop me out of my 4.0 status in this class and there probably is not enough left of the quarter to reclaim it. However, I came home tonight to my three children and my husband and all the disappointment disappeared. It wasn't by my strength. God alone gave me perspective.... immediate perspective about what my life is about. It's not about perfect scores coming out of college. (Although that would be really nice!)
It's about greeting my children and my husband and being excited with them about the bike ride that they all took together tonight. It's about intently listening as they relive their exciting tale of fast hills and skidding turns. It's about celebrating with a nine year old who is so proud of herself for going down the BIG hill with no brakes.
Hearing them tell me how much they love snuggling with me before they go to sleep is the perfection that I am thankful for. I did my best and I'm forgetting the rest. (Well, I'm not dwelling on it anyway which is really good progress for me.) Hopefully I'll be able to keep this perspective through the next four finals!
Fall is here!
4 years ago